Thursday, March 31, 2011

愉撼。。。

想一想,我人生最大的愉撼是什么。。。


忍识他?和他结婚?
那不是我人生最快了的日子吗?

他有别的女人,我还继续留在原地?
这不是我自愿的吗?

进Poly 而不是进大学?
找到这份工作?

好多事不是我选的吗?
那我该怎么办? 才不会终生愉撼呢?
一切都不能重来。。。
那我该怎么办?
重新来过。。。我要怎么跳出来呢?

想做我喜欢的事。。。
想跟我喜欢的人在一起。。。
一切都那么困难。。。好累。。。
为什么有些人就那么辛富?而我却活得好累?
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该怎么办? 才不会终生愉撼?


Interesting story...

http://gz.focus.cn/msgview/21567/7835959.html

1.误会 :

  早年在美国阿拉斯加地方,有一对年轻人结婚,婚後生育,他的太太因难
产而死,遗下一孩子。

  他忙生活,又忙於看家,因没有人帮忙看孩子,就训练一只狗,那狗聪明
听话,能照顾小孩,咬著奶瓶喂奶给孩子喝,抚养孩子。

  有一天,主人出门去了,叫它照顾孩子。

  他到了别的乡村,因遇大雪,当日不能回来。第二天才赶回家,狗立即闻
声出来迎接主人。他把房门开一看,到处是血,抬头一望,床上也是血,孩子
不见了,狗在身边,满口也是血,主人发现这种情形,以为狗性发作,把孩子
吃掉了,大怒之下,拿起刀来向著狗头一劈,把狗杀死了。

  之後,忽然听到孩子的声音,又见他从床下爬了出来,於是抱起孩子;虽
然身上有血,但并未受伤。

  他很奇怪,不知究竟是怎么一回事,再看看狗身,腿上的肉没有了,旁边
有一只狼,口里还咬著狗的肉;狗救了小主人,却被主人误杀了,这真是天下
最令人惊奇的误会。


  注:误会的事,是人往往在不了解、无理智、无耐心、缺少思考、未能多
方体谅对方,反省自己,感情极为冲动的情况之下所发生。




  误会一开始,即一直只想到对方的千错万错;因此,会使误会越陷越深,
弄到不可收拾的地步,人对无知的动物小狗发生误会,尚且会有如此可怕严重
的後果,这样人与人之间的误会,则其後果更是难以想像。



2.钉子 :

  有一个男孩有著很坏的脾气,於是他的父亲就给了他一袋钉子;并且告诉
他,每当他发脾气的时候就钉一根钉子在後院的围篱上。

  第一天,这个男孩钉下了37根钉子。慢慢地每天钉下的数量减少了。 他发现控制自己的脾气要比钉下那些钉子来得容易些。 终於有一天这个男孩再也不会失去耐性乱发脾气,他告诉他的父亲这件事,父亲告诉他,现在开始每当他能控制自己的脾气的时候,就拔出一根钉子。

  一天天地过去了,最後男孩告诉他的父亲,他终於把所有钉子都拔出来了。

  父亲握著他的手来到後院说:你做得很好,我的好孩子。但是看看那些围篱上的洞,这些围篱将永远不能回复成从前。你生气的时候说的话将像这些钉子一样留下疤痕。如果你拿刀子捅别人一刀,不管你说了多少次对不起,那个伤口将永远存在。话语的伤痛就像真实的伤痛一样令人无法承受。

  注:人与人之间常常因为一些彼此无法释怀的坚持,而造成永远的伤害。如果我们都能从自己做起,开始宽容地看待他人,相信你(你)一定能收到许多意想不到的结果....帮别人开启一扇窗,也就是让自己看到更完整的天空....


3.且慢下手 ?

  大多数的同仁都很兴奋,因为单位里调来一位新主管,据说是个能人,专门被派来整顿业务;可是日一天天过去,新主管却毫无作为,每天彬彬有礼进办公室,便躲在里面难得出门,那些本来紧张得要死的坏份子,现在反而更猖獗了。

「他那里是个能人嘛!根本是个老好人,比以前的主管更容易唬!」

 四个月过去,就在真正努力为新主管感到失望时,新主管却发威了--坏份子一律开革,能人则获得晋升。下手之快,断事之准,与四月表现保守的他,简直像是全然换个人。

  年终聚餐时,新主管在酒过三巡之後致词:「相信大家对我新到任期间的表现,和後来的大刀阔斧,一定感到不解,现在听我说个故事,各位就明白了:「我有位朋友,买了栋带著大院的房子,他一搬进去,就将那院子全面整顿,杂草树一律清除,改种自己新买的花卉,某日原先的屋主往访,进门大吃一惊的问:『那最名贵的牡丹哪里去了?』我这位朋友才发现,他竟然把牡丹当草给铲了。

  後来他又买了一栋房子,虽然院子更是杂乱,他却是按兵不动,果然冬天以为是杂树的植物,春天里开了繁花;春天以为是野草的,夏天里成了锦蔟;半年都没有动静的小树,秋天居然红了叶。直到暮秋,它才真正认清哪些是无用的植物,而大力铲除,并使所有珍贵的草木得以保存。」说到这儿,主管举起杯来:「让我敬在座的每一位,因为如果这办公室是个花园,你们就都是其间的珍木,珍木不可能一年到头开花结果,只有经过长期的观察才认得出啊!

4.宽大 :

  这是一个甫自越战归来的士兵的故事。他从旧金山打电话给他的父母,告诉他们:「爸妈,我回来了,可是我有个不情之请。我想带一个朋友同我一起回家。」「当然好啊!」他们回答「我们会很高兴见到的。」

  不过儿子又继续下去「可是有件事我想先告诉你们,他在越战里受了重伤,少了一条胳臂和一只脚,他现在走投无路,我想请他回来和我们一起生活。」

  「儿子,我很遗撼,不过或许我们可以帮他找个安身之处。」父亲又接著说「儿子,你不知道自己在说些什么。像他这样残障的人会对我们的生活造成很大的负担。我们还有自己的生活要过,不能就让他这样破坏了。我建议你先回家然後忘了他,他会找到自己的一片天空的。」

  就在此时?l挂上了电话,他的父母再也没有他的消息了。

  几天後,这对父母接到了来自旧金山警局的电话,告诉他们亲爱的儿子已经坠楼身亡了。警方相信这只是单纯的自杀案件。於是他们伤心欲绝地飞往旧金山,并在警方带领之下到停?间去辨认儿子的遗体。

  那的确是他们的儿子没错,但惊讶的是儿子居然,只有一条胳臂和一条腿。

  故事中的父母就和我们大多数人一样。要去喜爱面貌姣好或谈吐风趣的人很容易,但是要喜欢那些造成我们不便和不快的人却太难了。我们总是宁愿和那些不如我们健康,美丽或聪明的人保持距离。


  然而感谢上帝,有些人却不会对我们如此残酷。他们会无怨无悔地爱我们,不论我们多么糟总是愿意接纳我们。今晚在你入睡之前,向上帝祷告请?赐给你力量去接纳他人,不论他们是怎么样的人;请?帮助我们了解那些不同於我们的人。


  每个人的心里都藏著一种神奇的东西称为「友情」,你不知道它究竟是如何发生何时发生,但你却知道它总会带给我们特殊的礼物。

  你也会了解友情是上帝给我们最珍贵的赠与!朋友就像是稀奇的宝物。他们带来欢笑,激励我们成功。他们倾听我们内心的话,与我们分享每一句赞美。他们的心房永远为我们而敞开。现在就告诉你的朋友你有多在乎他们。


  试想:朋友,您一路看下来之後;一定有很深的感触吧。那么,在对别人有所决定与判断之前,首先,请想想这是否是一个「误会」,然後,请考虑您是否一定要钉下这个「钉子」,如果可以的话,请「且慢下手」。


  因为,当您对别人「宽大」之时,即是对您自己宽大。

Sad........

I cried again..
when I saw photo of him and that woman..together..
Openly going to event/ function together..
hugging close together

I can't help crying..
Why am I so useless?
Why is he so heartless and hurt me so bad!
There really is no love between us anymore?
Why he has to be so cruel towards me?
Why do I have such a man for husband?

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

How Long?

争扎中。。。

How long can a person get over with someone and recovers from it?
Not 1 month...
1 year?
10 years?
or never? It will be with the person throughout his/her life?
Unless the someone new comes along?

Even though, the painful memories were kept secretly away...temporary..not erased...
Till one day...these memories were played again...

Retreat 30 Mar 11

We had our Retreat at HUFC East cost.
I searched thru web on what bus to take.
Morning, I took bus no. 12. I went out around 0805am.
Counted the number of bus stop to reach the place.
There were 32 bus stops and at the 10 bus stop, it was already around 0850hrs. I alighted and took a cab instead.
The cab made a turn and it reached East coast within 5mins! However, the uncle stopped somewhere after the HUFC and I had to walk a bit..but..imagine if I were to continue the bus ride? I still have 20 bus stop to go..I don't think I can reach at 0900hrs.


Made by my colleague..He said he made this before he joined Prison..
Yellow ribbon..quite talented, I would say..


Group photo at the clubhouse.
The people mending the place was quite friendly!



After retreat, we had our active hour at East coast park.
Cycling, so long since I last cycled..
hmm..


These two..trying to save energy by renting double..
hmm..or they trying to be ...funny?If you were behind them when cycling, you will know...


Not sure where were they..I stopped at the rental shop and could not continue further..
Took some photos of nearby sandcastle..
They looked a bit out of shape though..


Did not stay long enough to capture sunset. The weather was hot..so..should have?
eh...sunset is East or west?


My bicycle...dump aside..




It would be good if there's no ship..




Photos taken with EPL2..hmm..
I preferred...DSLR..photos sharper and nicer..
this is my ?? times saying this?hmm

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Marriage pledge

Suddenly thinking..what we pledge when we went thru ROM...
Why should we have to go thru the pledge since nobody remembers that and keep to it?
Why must go thru all this useless process?Just sign the paper will do right?!

Will you love her, comfort her, honour and keep her in sickness and in health and forsaking all others, be faithful to her, so long as you both shall live?

Love, comfort be faithful to her so long as you both shall live?

Can you keep to your pledge?

Or should enforce some laws?if never keep to that, you will be prosecuted?
hmm..........................
Whats the point? forcing a couple with no love to stay together?
Whoever does not comply shall be prosecuted!
ie..couple forced to be together and no matter what, even no longer love, will try to love?hmm......
haha...算了吧,双方都会活得很辛苦吧..

Standard Marriage Vows



Review the following marriage vows used at the the Registry of Marriages (ROM). You and your partner may want to adapt it to suit your requirements.

Registrar's Address


Before you are joined in matrimony, it is my duty to remind you of the solemn and binding character of the vows you are about to make. Marriage according to law is the union of one man and one woman, voluntarily entered into for life, to the exclusion of all others.


Do I understand that you __________________ and you ________________ are here of your own free will for the purpose of becoming man and wife?


Couple answer together: Yes

To Bridegroom


Will you, __________________ take this woman ______________ to be your wedded wife, to live together in the legal estate of matrimony? Will you love her, comfort her, honour and keep her in sickness and in health and forsaking all others, be faithful to her, so long as you both shall live?


Answer: I will


To Bride


Will you, _________________ take this man _________________ to be your wedded husband, to live together in the ligal estate of matrimony? Will you love him, comfort him, honour and keep him in sickness and in health and forsaking all others, be faithful to him, so long as you both shall live?


Answer: I will


The Rings (optional)


Registrar's Instructions


Take this ring and put it upon the third finger of his/her left hand and repeat after me: In token and pledge of our constant faith and abiding love, with this ring I marry you.

Registrar's Pronouncement


As both of you have given your consent before me to live together in matrimony and have solemnly promised, each to the other to do so, I now pronounce you two Man and Wife.

29 March Remember When

Song posted previously..

Think I shouldn't remember / think back..
sigh..can someone erase my memories?
sad............................................................




29 March - 记得

29 March 2000, I got a boyfriend, one and only one..
29 March 2011, he is my husband and a lover of someone else.
Future, he is my .......................................
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SAD.........................................

I know I shouldn't think about all this anymore...

Siting in the cab, going to Orchid Country Club..
Rushing and late..
Wondering what date is today..
29 March 11...
then I remember that day, 11 yrs back.......those days...
We can never go back to the past....
Tears came down...can't help..
Can I play this song again....

Monday, March 28, 2011

Divorce

Searching for divorce proceedings, etc..

I believe I will have to go thru and settle it 1 day since there's no chance for us anymore.
Searching and reading thru..
怎么不舍得, 这么一天也会来临。
想一想,还有什每么不舍得?
This is the best solution for us.
For his freedom..and to stop torturing myself.


The court will only grant you a divorce if it is satisfied that your marriage has "irretrievably broken down". In order to prove that your marriage has "irretrievably broken down", you must be able to show the existence of at least one of the following facts ("grounds"):


(a) That your spouse has committed adultery (i.e. had consensual sexual relations with a person other than yourself), and that you find it intolerable to live with him/her; and/or


(b) That your spouse has behaved in such a way that you cannot reasonably be expected to live with him/her (for example, your spouse has committed family violence against you); and/or


(c) That your spouse has deserted you for a continuous period of at least 2 years just before you start your divorce proceedings; and/or


(d) That you and your spouse have lived apart for a continuous period of at least 3 years just before you start divorce proceedings, and your spouse agrees to the divorce; and/or


(e) That you and your spouse have lived apart for a continuous period of at least 4 years just before you start divorce proceedings. In this case, your spouse does not need to agree to the divorce.


Note that for a) above, if you continue to live with your spouse for more than 6 months after you discover the adultery, you cannot rely on adultery to petition for a divorce.

For c) above, desertion means leaving you without your agreement and without any reasonable cause. In exceptional cases, where your spouse has without reasonable cause driven you out of the home and continues to exclude you from the house for a period of two years, that can also constitute desertion by your spouse.
For d) and e) above, "living apart" requires the intention of staying apart from each other with the view of ending the marriage, as well as the physical act of staying apart. However, you may still be considered as staying apart even if you and your spouse are staying at the same address, if you and your spouse have led completely separate lives and have separate households (i.e. not staying in the same bedroom, not having sexual relations, not doing any household chores such as cooking, washing, cleaning, ironing, etc. together, or for each other; not having meals together as a family; not going out together as a family, etc.) for the required length of time, for the purposes of obtaining a divorce based on three or four years' separation.

不舍得。。。。。。。。。

不舍得又能怎样?
难到你能容忍他跟别人在一起?
他的心以给了别人,
他一点都不再乎你了,
以经放弃你,
你还想从他那里得到什么。。。
你不会幸福的。。
放弃吧。。。

他也不挽留你,
他不能离开他。。
十年还不如两年的感情。。
你知道的,你们在一起,已经没有感情了。
放弃吧。。。
想起了,还是会伤心,心痛。。。
还是会哭。。。。。。。。
没有幸福的。。。。
放弃吧。。。

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Sigh....难过..

有时候
哭泣不是因为难过
有一些东西错过了
就一辈子错过了
人是会变的
守住一个不变的承诺
却守不住一颗善变的心
有时候执着是一种负担
放弃是一种解脱
人没有完美
幸福没有一百分
知道自己没有能力一次拥有那么多
也没有权力要求那么多
否则苦了自己、也为难了对方
一颗心属于一个人
爱情里什么是公平?
爱的深、伤的深
爱情里没有不公平
爱上不该爱的人
是永无天日的叹息
爱了不爱你的人
是眼泪决堤的开始
承诺是一张白纸
再厚的剧本也有结局
我想我知道眼泪的味道
就算付出每一分每一秒我都不曾想逃
在这个世界上没有恒久的幸福
只有瞬间的惬意和安适
也许无言才是最好的安慰
也许回忆是最好的结局
傻瓜也都一样
都逃不过悲伤
因为有梦在心上
所以甘心流浪
有些缘分注定要失去
有些缘分注定不会有好结果的
爱一个人不一定要拥有他
但拥有一个人一定要去好好爱他
不要轻言放弃
否则对不起自己
很多事情的发展注定有个结束
好好享受美丽的过程
擦身而过的时候我们应该学会遗忘
放声的笑一回
大胆的哭一场
抬头望一望
一片灿烂的阳光
相信时间可以改变一切
不要轻易再让自己掉眼泪
春有春的风情
夏有夏的烈艳
秋有秋的素洁
冬有冬的雅致
人生各有各的美丽
各有各的潇洒
你笑
全世界跟着你笑
你哭
全世界只有你一个人哭
当不能拥有时
唯一能做的就是
令自己忘掉所拥有过的一切…

A new hairstyle, a new age, a new start..

 Sad...
Do nothing on birthday..
except going for a haircut.
Wanted to cut it short since long time only that the hairdresser said I am fat and not suitable.
Today, went to another hairdresser and insisted on cutting it short!


Is it cos of the song by 梁詠琪- 短髮?


哭到喉嚨沙啞 還得拼命裝傻
我故意視而不見 你外套上有她的髮
她應該非常聽你的話
她應該會順著你的步伐
乖乖的呆在家
靜靜的守著電話

我已剪短我的髮 剪斷了牽掛
剪一地不被愛的分岔
長長短短 短短長長
一吋一吋在掙扎

我已剪短我的髮 剪斷了懲罰
剪一地傷透我的尷尬
反反覆覆 清清楚楚
一刀兩斷 你的情話 你的謊話


At least, now, easier for hairwash, don't need to bun up for work..
and I think I look younger, hehe..
ok..I know I am still fat..


Happy to see mum at Whitesand! Thought she would come home late but she looked for me around 1pm I think..and I was surprised! Happy..
Me and mum went haircut together..and we did something else..guess what.......
Look at my face..see anyting different?



From me to you....

Please don't bother with me anymore.
You don't love me..obviously, you love her more..

You can't make a decision, then I make it for you.
Don't need to be trouble, don't need to be difficult..
I won't ask again..
You can be with her or whoever and don't have to be angry with me anymore..

I will be very sad, yes..
let me be..Don't sms or ask me how I am..
cos I will expect something from you which you can't do..
Don't give me hope..

I hope I will be strong to overcome it...and let me get over it.
Though I will be sad everytime I think of us..but I will get over it..
Though I know I can't forget u..but I will try..

Life?Don't know what title...

1、心痛的声音,你听不到,愚昧的我还在等什么呢?
2、轻轻地、不想打扰你。可惜还是碰到了让我伤痛的记忆
3、留在你的身边,我的生命就只有一种可能,那就是痛苦。但是离开了你,我的生命就有一万种可能!
4、流金的岁月,似水的年华,伴随着你的离去,我葬送了我的岁月年华,你懂吗?
5、在我心底深处,有你意想不到的痛,到底还能撑多久,依旧保持我最坚强的微笑。
6、也许是我不够成熟,但也或许是因为你太年轻…
7、闭上眼,我看到了你的无所谓
8、在这个世界上,没有人值得我哭,因为值得我哭的人,不会让我哭。
9、习惯了你的冷漠,突然的关心会让我不知所措!
10、你给的承诺就像星星一样,那么多,但是我永远也得不到!
11、人生最珍贵的两个字,就是“饶恕”!
12、心里的地方就只有那么大,有人进来就必定有人要离开!
13、人生太漫长,你只不过是一道风景!
14、生活中有很多东西,不是得到就是失去。也许我失去的很多,但必有所得!
15、活着的意义,不是说:“对不起”,而是说:“没关系”。
16、爱情就像烟花的绽放,再美丽也是一瞬间的华彩。
17、如果有一天,我死了,那我一定是化成了风,永远陪在你身边!
18、如果你注定不能给予我期待的回应,那么我们还是保持距离吧!
19、那些伤太美,使我不肯放下,以至于微笑也那么疼!
20、开始喜欢最初的自己,那时候没有伤,不会哭泣!
21、自由代表的是内心永久的孤独。
22、现实太假,还是自己太傻?
23、一切因为寂寞,才开始了暧昧。
24、生活的真正意义是:生下来,活下去
25、年龄不是差距,身高不是距离。
26、人生是一张单程车票,没有后退,没有返回!
27、虽然有时候我会心痛,但是我却拥有别人不曾拥有的幸福,所以我知足了!
28、在爱与被爱的选择里,我选择了被爱,错、又能如何?
29、在你的世界,没有我的存在,所以你感受不到我内心深处的苍桑
30、心若没有栖悉的地方,到哪里都是流浪。
31、无论何时,无论何地,只要你需要我,我就会永远陪在你身边。
32、全世界都可以不理我,只有你不可以。
33、深深地拥入你的怀里,紧紧地贴在你的胸口,静静地聆听你心跳的声音!
34、我弱小的心灵,承受不了你狂风暴雨般的爱。
35、请不要再来破坏我内心唯一的一丝平静,我只想守住这平静,静静的看着你。

...........

睡不着。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
吃不下。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
只是一直在哭。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
好伤心的生日。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
真的好伤心。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME...

Happy Birthday to me..
Not happy at all....sigh..
hopefully, being 1 yr order, the year ahead would be good for me..
Hmm...A very sad birthday this year

Nobody celebrates with me too..
Mum and dad went 扫墓, left me alone at home..

Wonder what would it be like if they left me..sigh..
me alone..

Saturday, March 26, 2011

心难受怎么办 ?

有一天,心问眼睛:“如果你难过,你会怎么办?”
眼睛说:“我会哭,哭红哭肿,直到把眼泪流干。”
眼睛问鼻子:“如果你难过,你会怎么办?”
鼻子说:“你哭的时候,我也和你一起难过,我感觉酸酸的。直到你哭完,我才能痊愈。”
鼻子问耳朵:“如果你难过,你会怎么办?”
耳朵说:“我可以听悲伤的歌曲,也可以听朋友的劝告与鼓励。”
耳朵问嘴巴:“如果你难过,你会怎么办?”
嘴巴说:“我的办法最多,我可以吃好多好吃的东西,也可以拒绝吃任何东西;我可以用烟酒来麻醉自己,也可以向其他人诉说。还可以,借别人的嘴唇来给我安慰。”
嘴巴又问心:“为什么要问这个问题呢?那么如果你难过,你会怎么办?”
心说:“因为我现在很难过,可是,我除了疼,没有别的办法忘记难过,我这颗心里,装满了回忆,甜蜜的,痛苦的,我这颗心里,装满了思念,虽然我知道我不该再思念。但是,我就是没办法忘却,怎么办呢?”

如果心难过,它该怎么办?

遇到这样的男生、该放手的就放手吧

1. 当你们吵架的时候。他不找你。只是放你一个人苦苦等待。而他和往常一样吃喝玩乐。那么,离开他。他不在乎你的感受。所以更不要奢望他会心疼你、那不可能。也不要苦苦哀求。那样只会让他更不在乎你


2. 当你因为其他的事情悲伤难过希望他安慰的时候。他不管不问。还说。我理解不了你的想法、有什么可难受的啊、那么离开他。你的生活。你的一切对于他都是无所谓的


3. 如果当你开心的时候。你找他一起分享快乐。他很无奈。不爱听你说话。那么。也离开他、真正爱你的人。是会把你的喜怒哀乐都装在心里。时时刻刻与你分担


4. 如果你一天。都等不到他的电话或信息。那么。也别给他发信息。打电话。那样只会让他觉得你离不开他。所以。你才会变成爱情的傀儡


5. 如果你伤心地流眼泪、他说,我烦你这样,快别哭了。那么。你还有什么值得流泪,真正爱你的人。不会让你流眼泪


6. 如果他背叛你。那么不用我说。这份感情。纯属娱乐。如果他提出分手比吃饭还频繁。如果你们之间伤心比快乐还多,。那么宝贝。请珍爱自己。远离他吧。

放不下?

一个男人来到寺庙找一位大师,他对大师说:“我好爱她、真的放不下”…………
大师就递了个杯给这男人,‘拿着这个杯,死都别放开’。
接着,大师开始把刚煮热的水倒入男人手上的杯里
水不倒一半,男人就痛得把杯子甩開了!
大师就告诉他,人没有什么放不下的…
知道痛了…
自然就会放下⋯⋯
世界上没有说没了谁就不能过、只是自己能不能帮自己站起来

难过了、不要告诉别人、自己知道就好

难过了,戴上耳机,漫步在小路上、­
难过了,吃自己喜欢的东西。
难过了,静静的蹲下来抱着自己,让眼泪尽情的洒落­
难过了,拿着镜子看看此刻的自己,让真实浮现眼前­
难过了,默默的将自己隐藏起来,让空虚掩盖一切­
难过了,闭眼倾听周围的声音,让自己沉浸在喧嚣中­
难过了,不必告诉别人,自己的悲伤为何要别人也承担呢­
难过了,可以假装快乐,和别人一起兴奋时就能遗忘了自己­
难过了,仍然安慰别的伤心者,你会发现自己也在受益,当局者迷而已

有谁不曾难过 ­
有谁还会记得 ­
过去的不再从来 ­
又何必去苦想 ­
忘掉… ­

用微笑渲泄悲伤
难过没什么大不了,重要的是以后要活得好。­
不再遇到难事就向人倾吐心声,自己默默承受就好。­
以后就这样生活。。。。。。。。。­
难过了、不用让别人知道、因为、不会有人在乎、、、、

Monday, March 21, 2011

Home alone

Felt so sad when mum and dad not at home..
No home- cooked food for me..
No one to accompany me watch the taiwan variety show..
Felt so lonely..
so sad..

20 Mar 11 - Chalet

Celebration of dad's and my birthday again...every year..same? Downtown east chalet..
BBQ, durian cake...hmm...

Dash..六连拍!

1..Using Nikon D5000 from 1st to 5th..


2..


3..


4..


5..


6..Using Olympus EPL2..Almost sell my camera cos I thought I have to buy pancake lens to achieve portrait effect. This photo taken with kit lens 14-42mm..but not as good as DSLR.


All on high ISO cos room quite dark..even on DSLR..
This photo from Nikon..


Below photos taken with Olympus EPL2. HAPPY with the portrait effect using kit lens! Lucky, I did not sell if off..

Why did she look like some animal..


Niece with her new toy..her mum, my sis said she bought cos it looks like her..


My sis...after making her lasik..still wearing non degree spectacle..


Niece playing with curtain


 Her brother joined her...



She said "HELLO" when she came out from the curtain..




At Escape Theme Park..


Sis hubby with violet taking Plane rides..



Train rides..


Saturday, March 19, 2011

Say bye to Olympus?

Wanted to buy Olympus 17mm 2.8 or Panasonic 20mm 1.8 lens for my EPL2.
Wanted to take portrait picture with the new camera.

Went to sim lim today and was shocked to know that the price for Olympus 17mm 2.8 was >$400 and Panasonic 20mm 1.8 lens was $535.
Worse, someone was selling Olympus 17mm 2.8 lens for $230 and I thought maybe the lens was cheap! I missed the chance of getting that lens!

Hmm..my kit lens of 14-42mm did not satisify me..I was not able to zoom for far, and I was not able to take portrait picture. Asking another lens, 14-140mm and it cost >$800! It was even more expensive than my sigma 18-200mm lens!

I decided to sell my Olympus EPL2 Red away. Selling at a lost..bought at around $900, selling at 800. Received a lot of sms after i posted for selling via clubsnap. I reduced the price to $750 and had arranged for viewing tomorrow..sigh...

Sad...I love my red camera a lot! It was review to perform better than other brands.. Only that I had to spend more $$ to purchase the lens.

I intend to change to Sony Nex 3 cos of the portrait effect seen from my sis husband photos..
Not sure I will regret..sigh..but I know that I regret wanting to sell my olympus..sad...

符瓊音 - 不服

Change the date from my previous post to todate.

符瓊音, saw from SCV, some singing competition show, she did not won 1st...
描寫21世紀新女人的愛情哲學 豪邁勇敢 不對等的愛情不必眷戀




符琼音-不服


词:谢铭佑 曲:陈健玮

给我坐好 别哭 

看看你又废成什麽样子

非他不可 别傻了 

摆明爱你一个他不满足

以他的忠诚度 只赢某些动物 

到底你明不明白你要的

没有藉口 今天 

什麽都给了他 让什麽步

你是唯一 就这样 

爱情就是你全部的领土

可以为了爱勇敢

但别为了爱糊涂

爱得那麽苦还不够满足

我就是不服

他该为你造一个城堡

他该是你无畏的明天

一起画好承诺的地图 去冒险

爱的十诫 容不下污点

找真爱 难在咬紧牙关不妥协

你的心再软一点 他的心就大一点

不服就要硬一点 顽固一点

Thursday, March 17, 2011

HAPPY ~~I PASS MY IPPT! ~~YEAH~~HAPPY

Took my IPPT today!
Started to feel stress after lunch.
My heart beat faster and faster...

Tried my timing on Monday and I couldn't complete 6 rounds..after first 2 rounds of 05:30mins, I felt breathless, struggled for the 3rd round and i gave up walking 4th..and after that, called it a day.

Today..the test..
everyone saw my stress face..
Going through static without any problem, even the sit up felt easier this time..
Next...my nightmare..2.4km run......ever since they changed to track, I only passed 1 time when time for me to be promoted. And actually, I missed my promotion cos I failed IPPT.

Same..I ran 2 round, overtaking one of my colleague..I knew that she could run..
After 2 round, i started walking..walked the round..then started opening up at the straight line..trying to catch up with my colleague..then..I started walking again..

Walked and ran, walked and ran..and I thought I couldn't make it. 5th round, 14:30min..I still continued walking my 6th...Ran straight..and stopped..I knew I am reaching the ending point, so I opened up and ran all the way! Reached the end, saw my timing 17:21min! YES! I MADE IT! LUCKY!!!

I am so happy! Finally pass!
The interval training during the Remedial training, hmm, think it helps afterall..

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Thats life...

不管在什么时侯,
总是会有一个讨厌的人在。
可是换个角度想,
那些人都是让我学到人生这东西。

Throughout our life,
we sure meet a lot of people who irritates us,
whom we dislike,
whom we hate.
However, think it postively, they are here to test us,
to help us grow up,
and make us learn how we can be a better person.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Japan earthquake and tsunami 11 Mar 11

11 Mar 11

Friday's massive earthquake in Japan, and the tsunami it triggered, were terrifyingly different.
Watched the news on 12 Mar 11 as dad switched to taiwan news since morning.
The tsunami that Japan's eathquake triggered was really scary!
It really seems like the world going to end..

I felt very scared and sad..
I wished to visit japan again, and it was my favorite country and now it became like that..
I hope Japan would recover soon and the people there would be fine..

Temple visit 6 Mar

Finally able to login to the blog and upload photos of my temple visit.
Following mum as she bought the tickets from community centre..
hmm..I think it would be good if one have some hobby..
At least i got something to look forward to for my holidays, visits, etc..ie, to take some photos...

In life, even without the special him, you still have your family members who will provide support..and they never give up on you..you can always depend on them..

I can't say you can depend on your friend as they have their own life to live on..but they would offer help if you really need them..

so don't give up..

Loyang Tua pek kong, Today is his birthday...Many people came here to pray


Horses and grass...Some horses eating grass??


Guarding...


Reminds me of one of the month in the year..


Already many joss stick...


Chinese tradition of borrowing ang bao from god..for good luck..have to return the following yr


Did you write your number here?
Wonder how many strike with their number written..
Or is it "extra"...


For the tiger god


Light a flame to protect everyone in the family


Hang a spiral incense


Try spinning..for 4D number?Toto?



This place houses fortune god..Somewhere in Sembawang..


Gold


Try aiming for the square hole..
I managed to throw in!
but..then? it doesn't give me good fortune though..


Visit to Chua chu kang farm..
aunties bought veg from here whereas me...wonder around again..

















There were a few other cats, but this cat get to sleep on a chair while the rest on floor













Photos taken with Olympus EPL2